Because of U

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

i dont know, whats happening to me today, what i mean here.. i feel lost suddenly, m i stupid or stubborn, or juz being i dont know what,(scolding myself)! i think he got new girl, to be honest, m fine wif dat, i dont have to see him, nymore, it makes me i dont know, evrytime we met, whatver, i really done wif him, i move on, but he keep coming back, feel being used, i juz need god at this moment, his energy to guide me, to be strong to be peacful, to get away from him.....

fLu~

coughing, koff koff heheh... yup still eye sore when use yellow....

i opened up evrythg to move on to the next level, next step...

to be strong, to be balance, to have the inner peacefull.... god i really need you~

I need home, whre i can be with.. still searching the home~

Something in your eyes
Makes me want to lose myself
Makes me want to lose myself
In your arms
There's something in your voice
Makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts
The rest of my life
If you knew how lonely my life has been
And how long I've felt so low
If you knew how I wanted someone to come along
And change my life the way you've done

Chorus: Feels like home to me
Feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where
I come from
Feels like home to me
Feels like home to me
Feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

A window breaks down a long dark street
And a siren wails in the night
But I'm alright 'cause I have you here with me
And I can almost see through the dark there's light

If you knew how much this moment means to me
And how long I've waited for your touch
If you knew how happy you are making me
I've never thought I'd love anyone so much

Chorus

Feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

dat song ive dedicated to my sis on her wedding, me... that is y i need my home... soon god, i know..

i let go his love, all this thing started cos the next table parted and the negetive energy flows to me, hate dat, and bcome soo emotional...

makes mylife beautiful
makes mylife smooth

SpooKy Vs FUnnY

Urmmm the training was great, evrything is smooth, its fun but spooky ahahah.... got alot of incident that when to think of it i will laugh, when the spookiness times... a bit scared!

got haf day, mc, not feeling well today, in and out... he came and send me to clinic, i dont think bout him, or nyone else, hello, i love my life like this..... and when to think bout migrating, m looking forward to, he didnt believe that ill go to states... well we'll see...

to look foward is what i am, to achive more is what i want, to be and to do great things is what i wish for....

spread the love... energy........


My life is brilliant
My love is pure
I saw an angel
Of that im sure
She smiled at me on the subway
She was with another man
But i wont lose no sleep on that
Cause ive got a plan

You`re beautiful. You`re beautiful.
You`re beautiful, it`s true
I saw your face in a crowded place,
and i dont know what to do
cause i`ll never be with you

yeah, she caught my eye
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that i was,
fucking high,
and i dont think that i`ll see her again
but we shared a moment that will last til the end

You`re beautiful.You`re beautiful
You`re beautiful, its true
i saw your face in a crowded place
and i dont know what to do
cause i`ll never be with you
You`re beautiful. You`re beautiful
You`re beautiful, it`s true
there must be an angel with a smile on her face,
when she thought up that i should be with you,
but it`s time to face the truth
i will never be with you.

UnXpected of UnXpecting....

What a sleeeeeeepy day, raining for the whole eve, nice weather n lepaks at ampang park, no whre to go exactly... life is so much fun and really happy and yea being single like this, the most that i miss currently is BLEACH!! dah le the hair looks like rukia hehehe...

Next wik meeting my Sifu, we'll c how or comments from him bout the plan... what a dream last nite... urm.. feel so much peaceful and relax.. miss him too cos i only have him n my sis here...

2mrw goin to fraser hill, relax, love, happy, joy, thankful n bless... what i feel at the moment..

thanks evryboy..........

Migrating???

URmmm.... m thinking of migrating... us mabe.. by end of next yr or early 2007.. y?

• i dont have nything left here, parents, they will gone soon, my beloved sis, she will migrate to uk.... when her child grows up
• its not i want a challenging life, but i want a happy life, to live is what i want, to make my life happy is what i wish for
• what else do i want... m thinking bout myself, i know i can survuve no matter whre, no matter in what condition
• god is always thre, i have to do tantric 1st b4 i go :)) .... (what a thing)..

"Thorn and Pride".

Grasp bravely
The signpost of pride,
Let it be steadfast;
As we struggle forward
To continue the journey
Another step. . .
. .Holding fast to our conviction,
Grasp strongly
Don't let it waver!
We dare
To stay here,
To blossom here,
To drop here.

by ang san suu kyi.. i have to act like her.. so to adapt dat, i need something more than human freedom strenght ... err... kundalini :D,

"For me real freedom is freedom from fear and unless you can live free from fear you cannot live a dignified human life. It's not possible if you're always having to think what will somebody do to me if I say this, what will somebody do to my family if I do that, that's not the sort of life I want to live and that was not the sort of life I want my people to live. So yes it's the idea of real freedom which comes from inside and once you're free inside and once you feel that I can accept whatever happens to me so long as I'm working for something that is right, then I think you are free."

whatever... m an actress... cleopatra, venus, conquer, and whatever it is .. alwiz take dat as a compliment! after a day ive been thinking, this is my desicion...

i keep my friend, i treasure the memories, i lost my love but still m happy to know that i have u( u know ) as a fren when m indeed.

What You Waiting For

What an amazing time
What a family
How did the years go by?
Now it's only me

Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
(La la la la la)

Like a cat in heat stuck in a moving car
A scary conversations,
Shut my eyes, can't find the brake
What if they say that you're a cutter?

Naturally i'm worried if i do it alone
Who really cares cuz it's your life
You never know, it could be great
Take a chance cuz you might grow
Oh... oh ohhh

What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?

What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?

Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock
Tick tock

Take a chance you stupid Ho

Like an echo pedal, you're repeating yourself
You know it all by heart
Why are you standing in one place?
Born to blossom, bloom to perish

You know you're only known
Cuz of your sex chromosome
I know it's so messed up how our society all thinks (for sure)
Life is short, you're capable (uh huh)
Oh... oh ohhh

LOOK AT YOUR WATCH NOW!
YOU'RE STILL A SUPER HOT FEMALE!
YOU GOT YOUR MILLION DOLLAR CONTRACT!
AND THEY'RE ALL WAITING FOR YOUR HOT TRACK!

What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?

What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?

I can't wait to go
Back into Japan
Get me lots of brand new fans
Osaka, Tokyo
You Harajuku girls
Damn, you've got some wicked style...

GO!
LOOK AT YOUR WATCH NOW!
YOU'RE STILL A SUPER HOT FEMALE!
YOU GOT YOUR MILLION DOLLAR CONTRACT!
AND THEY'RE ALL WAITING FOR YOUR HOT TRACK!

What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?

What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting
What you waiting for!?

What you waiting for?
What you waiting for?
Take a chance, you stupid ho

Take a chance, you stupid ho
What you waiting for?
What you waiting for?
Take a chance, you stupid ho
Take a chance, you stupid ho

Everything to Me + Why Cant I breathe

Liz phair is supermom, divorced punk rock indie "mem"... da lama around.. lately turn nyanyi lagu2 kiut.. *sebenarnya ada lagu stok kiut dia tp psl fringe dan underground..)-

Layan dua yg terbesh drpd makcik nie..

EVERYTHING TO ME

I bet it makes you laugh-
Watching me work so hard to reach you
You never gave a damn
About all of those things
I did to please you

All that you wanted, you found somewhere else
And nothing could drag you away from yourself

Do you really know me at all?
Would you take the time to catch me if I fall?
Are you ever gonna be that real to me?Everything to me

Lucky I've been through hell Backroads and shortcuts I know them well
Baby just stick with me
We'll make it together, just wait and see

Do you really know me at all?
Would you take the time to catch me if I fall?
Are you ever gonna be that real to me? Everything to me

The walls they close in
The air it goes out
We're left with nothing but a shadow of doubt

Nobody talks, no one is here It's just you and me

Do you really know me at all?
Would you take the time to catch me if I fall?
Are you ever gonna be that real to me?Everything to me

Do you really know me at all?
Would you take the time to catch me if I fall?
Are you ever gonna be that real to me?Everything to me

I bet it makes you laugh
Watching me work so hard to reach you

WHY CANT I... also ada dlm filem 13 gone 30
Get a load of me, get a load of you
Walkin' down the street, and I hardly know you (hardly know you)
It's just like we were meant to be
Holding hands with you, when we're out at night
Got a girlfriend, you say it isn't right (isn't right)
And I've got someone waiting, too

What it is, its just the beginning
We're already wet, and we're gonna go swimming

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you

It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me-Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you? (when ever i think about you, X4)

Isn't this the best part of breakin' up
Finding someone else you can't get enough of
Someone who wants to be with you, too

It's an itch we know we are gonna scratch
Gonna take a while for this egg to hatch.
But wouldn't it be beautiful?

Here we go, we're at the beginning
We haven't fucked yet, but my head’s spinning

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
high enough for you to make me wonder
Where it's goin'high enough for you to pull me under

Somethin's growin'
Out of this that we can't control
Baby I am dyin'

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you?
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you?
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you?
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you?
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it

So tell me-Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you? (whenever i think about you, whenever i think about you, whenever i think about you, whenever i think about youuuu)

All the loVe in the woRld

There's people talking
They talk about me
They know my name
They think they know everything
But they don't know anything
About me

Give me a dance floor
Give me a dj
Play me a record
Forget what they say
Cause I need to go
Need to getaway tonight

I put my makeup on a saturday night
I try to make it happen
Try to make it all right
I know I make mistakes
I'm living life day to day
It's never really easy but it's ok

Wake Up Wake Up
On a saturday night
Could be New York
Maybe Hollywood and Vine
London, Paris maybe Tokyo
There's something going on anywhere I go
Tonight
Tonight
Yeah, tonight

The city's restless
It's all around me
People in motion
Sick of all the same routines
And they need to go
They need to get away
Tonight

I put my makeup on a saturday night
I try to make it happen
Try to make it all right
I know I make mistakes
I'm living life day to day
It's never really easy but it's ok

Wake Up Wake Up
On a saturday night
Could be New York
Maybe Hollywood and Vine
London, Paris maybe Tokyo
There's something going on anywhere I go
Tonight
Tonight
Yeah, tonight

People all around you
Everywhere that you go
People all around you
They don't really know you
Everybody watching like it's some kind of show
Everybody's watching
They don't really know you now
(They don't really know you)
(They don't really know you)
And forever

Wake Up Wake Up
(Wake Up Wake Up)
Wake Up Wake Up
(Wake Up Wake Up)

Wake Up Wake Up
On a saturday night
Could be New York
Maybe Hollywood and Vine
London, Paris maybe Tokyo
There's something going on anywhere I go

Wake Up Wake Up
On a saturday night
Could be New York
Maybe Hollywood and Vine
London, Paris maybe Tokyo
There's something going on anywhere
I go
Tonight
Tonight
Yeah, tonight

after a while... sleepy n tired cos of the journey today...not happy with my dad.. well, i dont want to settle down at this this time... gimme a break, come on la.. after i broke off, pls give me times to do my own swit things, men come with intention, i need a MEN dat .. a lot of criterias that i want in men basically.. and god knows..

well, i juz have to wait for my prince charming to come... save to the rescue.. whatever... i dont want him, not anymore, tired laa running on and off, i have my own desicion, i have my own tots and feelings.. well... its juz the end, he missd me.. yeah at certain stage i do missd him... but... i have my own thing

thanks to shedee for alwiz be thre for me... juz remains whatever it is... we'll c in cairo soon ya... hahah... i juz want to get away.. atleast i can go thre alone.. yeah... m not scared, m like this... alone but not lonely... nymore... i realize soo many things... it takes time rite...

i do feel m in love.. i think dat is y m alwiz happy, mabe..

I'm not looking for someone to talk to
I've got my friends, I'm more than okay
I've got more than a girl could wish for
I live my dreams, but it's not all they say

Still I believe
(I'm missing...)
I'm missing something real
I need someone who releases me

(Don't want to wake...)
Don't want to wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk in my door
All I need is to know it's for sure
Then I'll give all the love in the world

I've often wondered if love's an illusion
Just to get you through the loneliest days
I can't critisise it, I had no hesitations
My imagination just stole me away

Still I believe
(I'm missing...)
I'm missing something real
I need someone who really sees me

(Don't want to wake...)
Don't want to wake up alone anymore
Still believeing you'll walk in my door
All I need is to know it's for sure
Then I'll give all the love in the world

[Guitar/Tin whistle solo]

Love's for a lifetime
Not for a moment
So how could I throw it away
I'm only human
And nights grow colder
With noone to love me that way

I need someone who releases me

(Don't want to wake...)
Don't want to wake up alone anymore
Still believeing you'll walk through my door
You'll reach for me and I'll know it's for sure
Then I'll give all the love in the world

(Don't want to wake up alone anymore)
All alone
(Don't want to wake up alone)
Just reach for me
(Don't want to wake up alone)
Don't want to be alone
(Don't want to wake up alone)
Don't want to wake up alone
(Don't want to wake up alone)
Let me know it's sure
(Don't want to wake up alone)
Still believe in someone
(Don't want to wake up alone)
When you reach for me
(Don't want to wake up alone)
Let me know it's for real

urm..... i do feel like falling in love but dunno y, and well... m njoy dis..out of sudden haha...love is beautiful... feels sleepy.. nothing much to do write.. cos tired...

You won't admit you love me
And so how am I ever to know?
You always tell me
Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps

A million times I've asked you,
And then I ask you over again
You only answer
Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps

If you can't make your mind up
We'll never get started
And I don't wanna wind up
Being parted, broken-hearted

So if you really love me
Say yes, but if you don't dear, confess
And please don't tell me
Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps

Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps

If you can't make your mind up
We'll never get started
And I don't wanna wind up
Being parted, broken-hearted

So if you really love me
Say yes, but if you don't dear, confess
And please don't tell me
Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps
Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps