More and More.... less is leftOut

Gloomy as today, my heart i mean but well, i dont want to choose that feelings, i dont want to call it as a mistakes, but i forgot a few my guideline, my life rules and regulations, dat is y i choose this colour, as grey as my heart, i dont know y i choose this way now, feels want to cry, but naah.. its juz a small matters, after all i know what i want and i have to be prepared, no guilt and no nothing, juz neutral, feel, be and act neutral...

Its not a wrong moves, but stupidito(zarin's word) ahaha... anyway i've njoyed evry moment dat is y i have to stop its not of beeing wrong, stupid or guilt but, i dont want dat, enuff for now, as simple as dat, what is the past remains as it is, juz enjoy the present and making a gud and rite desicion for ur life, if i have to choose this, well i have to bear the consiquences and be responsible for what i've done, yeah advicing a fren bout love, but look at me... i know how to feel the love, feel the happiness if i choose to, if not, m being fucked up for the rest of mylife, what for, juz bear in mind, its not the other person makes u complete but share completeness wif other person, very inspiring really, life is not to discover but seek who u are and what you want to be, seek for the truth and the truth will set u free.. not damned lucky but blessing lucky....

Yes i am, blessing lucky, my weekend is very thoughful and meaningful, still i count it as a luxury moments, u cant buy experienced of course... this is what ive chose so bear wif it, god its not interfere in making decision i mean choices, well, dont blame him u couse ur own faulty, waiting for my coach to call me up..

Still feeling sad, not that sad sad but i dont know, its not hurt either but i dont know, maybe more to dissapointed a bit in terms of my stupid choices, which i have to bbe very2 careful next time in short future.. which i dont want to talk bout future of course, some ppl wont or they dont want to understand, am i dat delicate as sheede said, m am dat bimbo dat eim sd, m i dat cute as awal sd, i dont know, what i know is whatever it is, love urself, cherishd urself and dont be contradict, its not gud for ur subconcious mind

What is need to be done, i will, thre wont be any next time from now on, be it, face it, whether whoever or whatevr call me later, i dont care and i dont want to know, be self centered, and ther real meaning of self-centerd not that kind of selfish yeah of course, m sickly sick wif myself now, part of it, its all bout me like eim said, well the heaven i care now, care nothing more, care nothing less, for heaven that i've longed for, its god that m wanting more, after 1 feeling and yet another feelings, dats me! being a cancerian, nobody allowed to understand me, my moves of course u cant predict, u can only see the top part only, for whoever is ... well enjoy evrythg and desire nothing.... well...

Its end quite well wif him, afterall this is what i choose to be, a lot of philosophy, me? really, experienced tot me to be betterment in present, bout him, wikenders our wikend was great tho m dissapointed quite if not y i do feel gloomy, anyway, to be more specific, i dont blame him, totaly, after all it takes two to tango... Juz enjoyg my present, let go all my past, let go all the sadness, this is not what i want to have, being fucked up all off sudden, being happy, being sincere, god please guide me, to be more being happy and bless in the future.

You need to stop playin’ ‘round
with all them clowns and the wangstas
Good girls gotta get down with the gangstas
Go ahead girl put some back and some neck up on it
While I stand up in the background and check up on it

Ooo boy you looking like you like what you see
Won’t you come over and check up on it
(I’ma let you work up on it)
Ladies let him check up on it
(Watch it while he check up on it)
Dip it, pop it, twirk it, stop it
Check on me tonight

If you got it, flaunt it
Boy I know you want it (Ooo)
While I turn around (you)
Watch me check up on it
Ooo, you watchin’ me shake it
I see it in your face
You can’t take it, it’s blazin’
You watch me in amazement

You can look at it
As long as you don’t grab it (Ooo)
If you don’t go braggin’ (you)
I might let you have it
You think that I’m teasin’
But I ain’t got no reason
I’m sure that I can please you
But first I gotta read you

Ooo boy you looking like you like what you see
Won’t you come over and check up on it
(I’ma let you work up on it)
Ladies let him check up on it
(Watch it while he check up on it)
Dip it, pop it, twirk it, stop it
Check on me tonight

Ooo boy you looking like you like what you see
Won’t you come over and check up on it
(I’ma let you work up on it)
Ladies let him check up on it
(Watch it while he check up on it)
Dip it, pop it, twirk it, stop it
Check on me tonight

I can tell you wanna taste it
But I’m gon’ make you chase it (Ooo)
Got to be patient (you)
I like my men patient, more patient
Your take might get you in more places
You can’t be abrasive
You have to know what pace is

If I let you get up on it
You got to make a promise (Ooo)
That you gon’ put it on me (you)
Like no one’s put it on me
Don’t bore me, just show me (no)
All men talk but don’t please
I can be a tease
But I really wanna please you

Ooo boy you looking like you like what you see
Won’t you come over and check up on it
(I’ma let you work up on it)
Ladies let him check up on it
(Watch it while he check up on it)
Dip it, pop it, twirk it, stop it
Check on me tonight